the children of Israel were more willing to die for their past than to die for their future
// anytime we step out for God, its going to feel like dying
Then he said to them all: “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross daily and follow me. (Luke 9:23 NIV)
Where God wants me to go is going to require the death of me
God’s call and the purpose of death
1. a calling out of “Egypt” // requires the death of Jesus Christ
2. a calling into the promise land // requires the death of me
side note: Moses was accused of being a mass murderer by the children of Israel! D:
we’ve embarked on a 40 days fast from negative thinking! I reallyyyyy love the daily devotions alot, and tried to follow it a few times, but so far I’ve only went till 10 plus or 20 sth days before it became discontinued =S
haha so I thought I start from the back of the booklet this time (play cheat) =B
Today we’re fasting from the thought that says, “I just don’t have the discipline to…”
and when I read it, it was like =O to me because it’s like at the back of your mind but it never really registered in my head this was a wrong thought/negative thinking.
Then it made sense, about what Bro Joel Wright said also at DCD that we’ve carried baggages with us so long that we don’t realise they’re there anymore. I’ve alwayyyysssss been so ill-discipline till it has become such a part of my life; I live with it and I kind of ‘pride’ myself for it (oxymoron ttm) and I think it as a personality trait, that this is me so change was not possible - but this is not true!
Having such mentality is like I’m setting myself up for failure all the time even before I start myself on anything… =O
Even the Word says:
For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline.
2 Timothy 1:7 (NLT)
God has given me the spirit of discipline and I am silly to think myself without it and to even reject it!
And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God.
Romans 12:2 (NKJV)
I really feel the necessity for the renewing of my mind, it feels weird as of now and hard to comprehend myself being someone of utmost discipline. But yes! I shall meditate on God’s Word and be transformed. Amen.
I want to be a disciple of Christ, not just a screaming crazy fan and discipline is at the core of being a disciple.
Thank you Jesus for understanding.